New Phase of Life (?)

Have you ready to face a new phase of your life?

I'm not sure.

Have you ready to challenge yourself to leave your place now?

I'm not sure.

Have you ready to sacrifice what you've got to earn settlement in your future?

I'm here for more than 4 years. I build mine here since I was a junior until now I become a senior. Many things have been passed. I love this place A LOT. Good environment, good job, good salary, good benefit, and many more things I should be grateful being a part of this place.

People who do not know this place will consider to leave and look for a better one. Many people, in years, suggested me to join government-recruitment to get higher salary or better benefit. Or maybe prestige. Well, they just clearly have different level of prestige than me (or many other employees in start-up/interco tech company😊). But clearly that's not my point. We're all here not to compete (unless they show off previously) OK. 

I used to have a dream to be a civil servant, many years ago, when I was a college student. What made me thinking that way obviously because my father was a civil servant too. I saw him doing his job and he did it so well, with good environment, good salary, and many other benefits he had. But that's like 7 years ago. Since I was graduated and looking for a job, then I was accepted in a start-up company, I knew that I was born to be the part of this kinda place. Informal company which doesn't care about working hours, outfit, or many other things which are needed in formal company. Now I'm part of interco tech company and still feel the same way that I do not even think to leave this company. Indeed it's difficult to find similar company with similar or higher benefit/salary/environment in my city.

Until the corona was coming. Fortunately, my company did not get any bad impact during this pandemic. My benefit and bonus still be given as usual, my salary raised on time, and my company decided to do working from home until now. What a perfect work! I can do this all at home and still getting paid as usual. But, sometimes I just thinking, this time my company survived. I do not know whether 10 years later or more when I'm gonna need more money for my children's need, and there will be any global issue which my company can't handle. I absolutely hope that my place now can survive forever but we do not know future. And as we all know that being civil servant is the safest way to avoid the national or global issue, you named it: pandemic 2020, economic crisis 1997, etc. 

So here I am now, following the test to be civil servant as my husband did last year. I do not know what will happened to my career. I do not know whether my score will make me go to the next step of the test or not. I do not know anything. Even I still do not know what I should do if I were accepted as civil servant. I do not know, will I get better environment/salary/benefit when I leave my current place for other company? Or I just go for it for the sake of "retirement salary" and "safe career"? That's not wrong thing, clearly that's a very good thing to be honest. But..... hmm :(

Well, someone told me that for this case just leave it to God. Just do what you can do and for the rest, let God decide what is good for you. I just have to pray as much as I can and so I can make sure my path will be right. In the name of God, I am sure all will be good, wherever I will be.

Yes. Now I just leave it to God. I've done everything in right path, I have done my test and I'm still doing the best of me for my company right now. I do not know what will happened tomorrow but I think that it's better to not thinking about that. I heard someone just said "Do not worry about future because God already planned it for you". Well okay. Even I'm worrying it, but I won't worry no more.

Cheers for anything a head!